your previous title is gay.

2006-07-23T17:49:00.000+08:00

Pills - The Perishers

I hope my smile
can distract you
I hope my fists
can fight for two
So it never has to show
And you'll never know

I hope my love
can blind you
I hope my arms
can bind you
So you'll never have to see
What we've grown to be

One may think
we're alright
But we need pills
to sleep at night
We need lies
to make it through the day
We're not ok

One may think
we're doing fine
But if I had to lay it on the line
We're losing ground
with every passing day
We're not ok

But that's one thing
I would never
One thing I would never
That's one thing
I would never say to you

2006-05-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

Pink Maggit - Deftones

Feeling as though everything has been knocked out of me by a few thousand tons of emotional baggage. No I'm no you, I'm no you.

2006-05-09T18:57:00.001+08:00

While My Guitar Gently Weeps - The Beatles

So I'll make you walk down the line you drew for me
cause I know you'll never cross it.

You'll never.

As the soap dispenser weeps tears of alkaline that
cling on to all the oil and grease I hate so much,
the texture of it stuck in my every pore holding me back,
holding me back.

Come on, force me.

2006-03-21T12:46:00.000+08:00

Bold As Love - John Mayer Trio

So jamming yesterday was fun, with darren mike rainer. Especially the soloing part haahha. I like John Mayer.

School tomorrow already boo, I hope I'll be allowed to join field.

I'm going to do homework the entire day now, hopefully I'll finish!

2005-12-05T15:30:00.000+08:00

Modern Way - Kaiser Chiefs

Music keeps me alive.

2005-12-05T14:24:00.000+08:00

Little Devotional - Taking Back Sunday

I love this band.

arh.

2005-11-23T05:03:00.000+08:00

One More Moment - Ronin

Everyone should go download this demo nownownow. Cause it's so..nice. Okay, it's 5:06 now. What difference does it make anyway. I can't sleep. Don't feel like sleeping. Hm. I miss you.

2005-11-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

The Closest I Am To Living Life On The Edge - Valencia

OKAY IT'S OFF. Just another screwed up ending typical of my life. Yeah it sucks but I do not like being made use of.

Someone's gone and I have to live through five whole days of this. Byebye handphone, hello guitar. Byebye smelly, hello music-coming-from-the-com-which-has-been-left on. Byebye bolster, hello spermo dermo.

What's so amazing, that keeps us star gazing?
And what do we think we might see?

2005-11-21T03:38:00.000+08:00

Cold Numb Sweat Under Sheets - ??

And if you rip me apart at the seams, you'd see.

I'm going to miss someone quite a lot.

Yinwei
1. Big Bang Theory - ??
2. It's You - ??
3. You're The One - ??
4. Rainbow Connection - Kermit The Frog
5. Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's
6. A Lonely September - Plain White T's

Daryl
1. Ever So Sweet - The Early November
2. Cold Numb Sweat Under Sheets - ??

Extra
1. All About You - Mcfly

Approximately 40 minutes.

Acoustic set on tuesday. Some chalet at Pasir Ris.

Fun.

2005-11-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

And just so ya'll know everyone else is not,
So I, I am not into the idea of living without you.
And I, I am not into the idea...
And no, this won't be a sad song,
There's gonna be claps and singing along.
Cause you're there when you talk and you're there not to stop,
and you're with me around the clock.

2005-11-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

One Last Breath - Creed

I'm happy.

Cause this thing is finally working out (: even if it doesn't seem like a big deal. Well, it will be a big deal. I hope.

Doing an acoustic set on the 22nd! Just yin wei and I. Can't wait hahaha.

Cannonball - Damien Rice
Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's
Now And Forever - Richard Marx
Rainbow Connection - Jason Mraz
Ever So Sweet - Early November
Big Bang Theory - ??

haha.

2005-11-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

Oh My God - Kaiser Chiefs

I'd do anything you ask me to.

2005-11-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

Miss Evening - Manana

Okaaaay, played guitar the entire day! (: but I'm tired now and playing the guitar always makes me want to sleep I don't know why. I think I should go to work! To save some money for a new amp maybe. I want a marshall stack. But working may be boring too.

You were the first, You'll be the last.

2005-11-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

After The Rush Hour - Million Dead

I'm going to start exercising again (: and get rid of all these flab yucks.
And I was wrong, the band would take a long time to get started.

(:

2005-11-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

Voodoo Child - Jimi Hendrix

Okay, so I got to play cause the mp3 didn't work. That makes me seem kind of desperate huh, I'm not.

The band's finally getting started (:

Swirling swirling whirls of nothing, I spin into a vortex of confusion.

2005-11-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

Everything I Once Had - The Honorary Title

I just read all my past entries and realised how much I've changed. Or didn't. It's pretty strange cause I can't remember what I was talking about. Okay so I'm blogging now cause I guess it improves my writing skills. I write in broken sentences now. Everything is so abrubt.

I need to improve on so many things.

2005-08-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAAAAARYL :D
hahahaha SMELLY LOVES YOU

2005-08-04T17:12:00.000+08:00

this post goes to the anonymous who commented on my lesbian outrage.

who are you. look at the reply i gave on the comment board.

-end-

2005-08-04T12:21:00.001+08:00

bola cola sakura. ting ting ting. bola is a cola sakura nyehnyehnyeh yibba yibba ugga horty honky tonky.

2005-05-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

hi daryl im back for a post!

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being single is great. yay im sixteen in amonthandsixdays. how short is that.

ps. fuck the world for all its lesbians and gays who should shoot themselves in the head for being wrongly circuited against His will of normal HETEROSEXUAL CONDUCT and that goes especially toward the bunks and booches(male side of the lesbians) for taking away so many perfectly good looking women and bringing them over to the DARK SIDE where they make out using fake dildos and FINGERS which is so ewww and which is so wrong and they DO NOT HAVE A DICK so no matter what YOU BOOCHES STILL MOTHER-FUCKING LOSE TO US GUYS WITH GUNS. LOSERS, GET A REAL GUY! that felt so much better. :)

2005-05-19T08:25:00.000+08:00

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next semester, I swear.

2005-05-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

my results are so disappointing. sigh, it kinda tiring thinking of how much I have to work just to get a 3.6 gpa. I need wednesday to come soon. and friday.

I still like eminem.

Eminem - Mockingbird

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it, we gonna do it
Lainie uncle's crazy, aint he yeah?
But he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
*Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
Onto Chalmers in a flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were to young to understand it
That Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainie I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)

2005-05-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

hello! : D

yay new layout by smelly! weird man there though. ha. I shall blog more frequently. although it's a boring thing blah blah. blog was so dead I wonder who comes here anymore. avery moved, leaving me alone.

I'm bouncing off the walls again, woo-oaa-ah!

Hot Hot Heat - Running Out Of Time

Witless, humorous conversation
Has filled me up like an old gas station
I'm wallowing in a pool of gasoline

Self appointed sherrif of a popular ghostown
I'm open to bribes but I've arrested no one
I'm galloping to meet my bride to be
She'll woo the saloon then sing us both to sleep

But... I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I've run out of time

Drop dead gorgeous art history drop out
Thought of her father ought to pay her to clear the whole shop up
She carries her cameras in hand to complete the look

Screenplay players co-writing screenplay
Cotton candy for the eyes but cotton balls for the brain
He thinks to himself, "Thank God the bar's not too high"
Just look at his face and then you'll see why

But... I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I've run out of time

Hollywood waiter with a chip on his shoulder
Only break has been his back and yet he's just getting older
He's washing his clothes in a sink of self pity

Retired ball playerguest hosting a talk show
Earned a trophy and a wife and twice he's won the lotto
I'm running away but don't know who from or why
Just look in his eyes and then you'll see why

I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I've run out of time

I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I've run out of time

2005-05-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

I wrote you a letter without punc-
tuation. Words flow freely,
like the rivers of imagination as it
depicts the end of everything.

For aren't you already gone? The
whistle of the steel trains resonating
in the air, hot steam gushing out of cold metal.

Isn't that what you do best?

You read me a story of true love in a false land;
but aren't we vulnerable when we're on our own?
Isn't the impact of fact practical, that we know so little,
yet assume so much?

2005-04-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

The Caesars - Jerk It Out

Wind me up
Put me down
Start me off and watch me go
I'll be running circles
around you sooner than you know

A little off center
and I'm out of tune
Just kickin this can along the avenue
But I'm alright

Cause it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it running through your bones
and you jerk it out
So you jerk it out

Shut up, hush your mouth
Can't you hear you talk too loud
No I can't hear nothing
because I got my head up in the clouds
I bite off anything I can chew
Chasing cars up and down the avenue
But that's okay

And you jerk it out
and you jerk it out
So baby don't you know you gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out

this shit is hot.

2005-04-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

jan is still a rocker. rocky!

you are my oxygenating strength,
the enervating power which makes me strained,
but mellow,
and whole.

and I love you so : D

2005-04-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

The Thrills - Deckchairs And Cigarettes

Well, what can you do
When all that surrounds you
Says slow down
Deckchairs and cigarettes

(Theyre sayin)
Lets go to San Diego
Hey thats where all the kids go

Just don't change a thing
Just don't change a thing
Just don't change a thing

Well the bottom fell out
On our summer
But we knew
What we got ourselves into

(Theyre sayin)
Lets go to San Diego
where all the crazy kids go

Just don't change a thing
Just don't change a thing
Just don't change a thing

Lets go to San Diego
where all the crazy kids go

You build me up so high,
My darling
You bring me down so low,
You know it

You build me up so high,
My darling
You bring me down so low,
You know it

Just don't change a thing
Just don't change a thing
Just don't change a thing

sounds kinda jazzy.

Life for me, is about waiting and waiting for the weekends so I can live my real life. The rest of the days are just for safety's sake and the need to be normal and typical.

I love you.

2005-04-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

my god i'm in love.

Kings Of Convenience - Cayman Islands

Through the alleyways to cool off in the shadows
Then into the street following the water
There's a bearded man paddling in his canoe
Looks as if he has come all the way from the Cayman Islands

These canals, it seems, they all go in circles
Places look the same, and we're the only difference
The wind is in your hair, it's covering my view
I'm holding on to you, on a bike we've hired until tomorrow

If only they could see, if only they had been here
They would understand, how someone could have chosen
To go the length I've gone, to spend just one day riding
Holding on to you, I never thought it would be this clear

2005-03-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

Jan,

I NEED YOU.

Daryl

2005-03-18T13:46:00.000+08:00

Mae - Summertime

Summertime, summertime brought me back to thinking you were mine
all those times.
We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind.
Oh, the summertime.

We could ride, we could ride.
Take my hand and watch the world go by.
Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly.
Oh, the summertime.

Go on ahead and let it fade away.
No looking back you know the past will stay.
It's you and me, we could get out of here.
Jump in and go and we could drive for years.

We could feel alive...

Here we are, here we are, windows down we see a falling star.
Stop the car.
Waiting for nothing but our beating hearts, going far.
Oh, the summertime.

So feel the air, feel the air, take the map and point to anywhere.
I don't care.
Fingers through your hair, the sky I've seen is blue and green.
Oh, the summertime.

Driving away, leaving it all behind.
Driving away, just driving away.

2005-03-14T00:39:00.000+08:00

argh. lovers babble. i MUST blog about this before i do not exist. XD

go dl tisbury lane by mae. the song is <3.
and for your daily dose of ghey pop, dl i'm all about you by aaron carter. that song is <3 too.

i am metro. i admit. XXD.

urgh, kill me for being too ghey, or being too vain.

'It'd take a miracle, so that's what I'm praying for..'

'just the sound of your voice, makes my heart melt ooh girl..'

2005-03-13T23:41:00.001+08:00

harder and harder to breathe. says:
janeeese you rock.

2005-03-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

daryl chew is a smelly bean who imposes as janeeese because he wants to be a rocker like her.

2005-03-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

YES I'M A SMELLY POTATO AND I LOVE TO THROW ROCKS AT MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR.

- JANEEESE

2005-03-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

janeeese lin is a smelly potato who likes to steal my password and impose as me. TSK TSK.

2005-03-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

HELLO,

JAN IS SO ROCKIN !

2005-03-06T21:47:00.000+08:00

Stereophonics - Dakota

Thinking about thinking of you
Summertime think it was June
Yeah think it was June
Laying back, head on the grass
Children grown having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
And drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
We never went far
Didn't need to go far

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now

Wake up cold coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we'll meet again
Talk about us instead
Talk about why did it end

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now

So take a look at me now

someone's angry at me. I don't know why I just provided my view. ... ar. I realised that all I do is post lyrics here. heh, but dakota is such a nice song.

la la, you make me wanna.

half day tomorrow! even physics remedial won't spoil my mood. hehe! well I need to shower and sleep soon.

thanks jan (:

I love you.

2005-03-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

my livejournal, a reminder to those who didn't know.

Without The Girl - Daniel Bedingfield

And mama told me if I want her. I gotta take it slow
You just can't tell her, you gotta find other ways to let her know
But I don't understand this game
This is so new to me
I wanna tell her
I wanna take her in my arms

Give her time and maybe one-day she'll come around
And see the love I'm offering
'Cause I don't wanna live without the girl
Heaven knows everyday I pray
That someday she will belong to me
'Cause I don't wanna live without the girl

She is my sunshine but her heart belongs to another man
She looks right through me, she only ever though of us as friends
But I'll keep holding back my heart
I will not let her see
I gonna bide my time
until the day she comes to me

Give her time and maybe one-day she'll come around
And see the love I'm offering
'Cause I don't wanna live without the girl
Heaven knows, everyday I pray
That someday she will belong to me
'Cause I don't wanna live without the girl

2005-03-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

bastard.

2005-03-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

Embrace - Looking As You Are

I told the Devil and the deep blue sea to hide
I thought that you were after them
I was right
But it's a picture I'll always keep in mind
Where you say I've never been even liked
For anything truly mine

And you did it - looking as you are
Looking as you are

Love enters, and leaves you through your eyes
You threw away the only thing that I like
And ought tell ya, that things will be alright
It never really seems that way, late at night

When you did it looking as you are
Looking as you are

Now I know, that the world's not waiting for you, nor for me
And I know that the world gets heavy, will change?

'Cause you did it looking as you are
looking as you are

Now you're gone, I stand on my own

I lead one very exciting jamming and nice life in neverland.

2005-02-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

never again.

2005-02-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

visit desu. =P

2005-02-19T22:55:00.000+08:00

The Used - All That I've Got

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

Avery still can't beat me. ha ha loser. maybe one day. one FINE day.

goodbye.

2005-02-16T17:50:00.000+08:00

i'm glad i wasnt born handicapped.
i'm glad i was born perfect with two eyes, two ears, one mouth and four limbs.
i'm glad i can go to school, play with my friends and have time to sleep.
i'm glad i can study without worrying about medical bills, PUB bills, school fees and about my next meal.
i'm glad i am not mentally or physicaly ill.
i'm glad i'm alive till now.

i'm glad i met you.

so there's no reason why i shouldnt cherish this lifetime.

i'm glad.

are you?

2005-02-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

I've got a bad feeling about this.

2005-02-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

ar, chinese new year is over. after getting red packets and finally getting my electric I feel ...tired. it's a sunday and tomorrow is a school day. valentine's day. and chinese sucks.

Pug Jelly - Come Home Soon

It's been two days and I'm missin' you already
Never really thought you could mean
So much in such a little time
Think about the nights when I'm lyin' in your bed
With my chest resting your head
Now that you're gone I'm here to stay

I think I'm fallin' down.
Down down down
With a bad case of love.
Love love love
I think I'm falling for you.
You you you

I think, I'm falling in love

When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes
So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel
Never knew how easy you could steal
My heart I miss you come home soon

I think, I'm fallin' in loveI think, I'm fallin' in love

2005-02-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

Daphne Loves Derby - The End Of Everything I Loved

"Take it or leave it." Were the words you chose over mine. So much reminds me of you and I miss your smile. 10.01 and this night is gone. I spent it ill while the world moves on. If time alone were the brush that paints with solace and misfortunate, my life would be a work of art. But I've seen this all before. Things shouldn't have gone this far. We shouldn't have gotten so close. But what made me believe? Was it the girl who made him forget all he's known. Every time he looked into her eyes. Or was it the boy who decided to give up his heart, and run away. Today is gone, tomorrow is mine but I'm still alone. (Keep breathing, keep dreaming, and keep singing for you). Bleeding out so much more, spilling blood since you've left. If I had a second chance id live a life waiting to death. So I walk to the store. I spent a buck fifty in quarters to buy the ring you said you liked, cause I'm thinking of you now. Now I drive to the coast. The place where I drown all my fears. Let the water set me free. I'm screaming can you hear? Or is this the end of everything I loved? Are we destined for more? Why can't you look me in the eyes and tell me what you want to. I know you want to so bad! But I've seen this all before. Things shouldn't have gone this far. We shouldn't have gotten so close. What made me believe? It was you who made me forget all that I've known. Every time I looked into your eyes. And it was me who decided to give up my heart and run away. Today is gone, tomorrow is mine, but I'm still alone.

Lovely.

Ar the concert today was fun. But it was more fun after it.
(: love.

2005-02-06T01:12:00.000+08:00

tennis? no talent. running? fake strength. studies? useless copy.

doushite? what am i to do.

my love of babble.

2005-01-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man

you dont see me girl, but i love you, yes i love you..

2005-01-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

im too busy but i just feel like blogging.

we all have our own lives to lead after all. it cant always be the same old ppl together. i guess i was too naive in the past. but now i've seen through all of it. eventually all of us will go our separate paths. and i wish all my budds a great road ahead.

2005-01-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

The Good Friend

she tells you how she spent last evening with him at the beach.

she tells you about her smses to him.

she tells you that she wants to have 8 kids with him.

she tells you he's a dream come true.

you listen, and advice, and be there whenever she quarrels with him

you persuade her to go back to him and that he's really nice.

you bring them together after their squabbles.

she tells you you're a great friend.

you smile and say nothing.

the pain of loving in secret.
she never knew. she never would.
that you love her more than he did.
for you let her be free.

2005-01-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

i've not been updating so im here to do just that.

tennis is fun. but i suck at it. i must BEAT daryl flat.

school is as per normal, im stil slacking around and watching Prince of Tennis and not studying. But at least im getting my assignments completed on schedule.

mr ho says he seldom gives up on students. but he also said that he already gave on up me. qoute," avery ar, you just dont have the heart nor the mind. i cant hold you back from doing whatever you want to do anymore. now you're free.". but before i left he said," avery, this year's finals is on april 17." Then i left.

social life < 0. so let's skip that part.

let's see. i've got two tests tmr and i've only studied for the physics one. better get to reading my chinese book.

reinstated as a prefect. most people cant believe it. cant blame them either.

to end it off, DONT GET INTO RELATIONSHIPS. they suck. but being friends would be nice.

-chewing gum

2005-01-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. Or was. This morning was crap, I woke up and felt like shit so I decided not to go to school. I hate hate HATE being sick and missing school, cause it creates a hell lot of trouble.

Stringed my guitar today, I feel so proud of myself.

Green day is a great band.

GREEN DAY - WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS

Summer has come and past,
The innocent can never last,
Wake me up when September ends,
Like my fathers come to pass,
Seven years has gone so fast,
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars,
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are,
As my memory rests,
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and past,
The innocent can never last,
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again,
Like we did when spring began,
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars,
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are,
As my memory rests,
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and past,
The innocent can never last,
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass,
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

2005-01-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

I need to grow taller so people can't look down on me (in the literal sense). SO. Goodnight to me. Happy growing to me. REM should come fast and easy.

Amen.

2005-01-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

life is endlessly boring and sad. stop it.

i want my six points now. give it to me future.

future is a really selfish piece of crap. may he burn in hell.

then there's past. she's really irritating. haunts me all the time. grr off babe.

then there's present who's here all the time. but then he's not here too.

i hate them all. cause when you add them together you get life.

2005-01-03T19:36:00.000+08:00

OBS camp tomorrow. Four/five days of living without contact to the outside world. Stranding us on an island, to fend for ourselves, against cruel Mother Nature. Believe me, however motherly her name suggests, she isn't in the least bit tallying. Look at the tsunamis. What the hell. It has been raining a lot the past few days, we are going to be so dead when it comes to canoeing. And I have to wear glasses, I can't risk getting an infection with contacts. What if my glasses drop into the sea >.< THEY ARE NEW GLASSES. I BROKE MY OLD ONE IN TAIWAN.

Hehe why am i getting so agitated even before it happens, I'm retarded!

GREEN DAY - WHATSERNAME

Thought I ran into you down on the street,
Then it turned out to only be a dream,
I made a point to burn all of the photographs,
She went away and then I took a different path,
I remember the face,
But I can't recall the name,
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Seems that she disappeared without a trace,
Did she every marry old what's his face,
I made a point to burn all of the photographs,
She went away and then I took a different path,
I remember the face,
But I can't recall the name,
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Remember, whatever,
It seems like forever ago,
Remember, whatever,
It seems like forever ago,
The regrets are useless,
In my mind,
She's in my head,
I must confess,
The regrets are useless,
In my mind,
She's in my head,
From so long ago

And in the darkest night,
If my memory serves me right,
I'll never turn back time

Forgetting you, but not the time

2005-01-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

okay. potato did this for me (: and this entry is to cover the momo pic below! this will be long.

new year's eve was fun. hehe STRIP POKER.

school's tomorrow and I should be asleep like now. BUT THIS ENTRY MUST BE LONG. so, hmm. I shall crap here. Singapore won! like, yeah. stupid myanmar(no cap) got four players sent off >.<

SUGARCULT - SIGN OFF

wake up all alone,
sending postcards back to home,
from the road.
if the medication works,
could I be the way I was,
in control?
you painted a picture,
I'm the worst type of sinner,
you know.
you painted a picture,
happier than I can afford.
nobody can save me,
nobody can save me,
nobody can say what I'll do if I'm alone.
sign off
sign off
sign off
sign off
sign off
sign off
sign off
sign off

2004-12-30T13:49:00.000+08:00

You're Momo!

(Prince of Tennis) Which Seigaku Regular are you?
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2004-12-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

TOP EVENTS IN MY PATHETIC LIFE THIS.... FORTNIGHT

1) skiing rocked in korea, i owned everyone

2) i hate it when dad gets drunk. and he did it on christmas and we were in korea and we had to carry him back and he made a scene and ppl were staring and he puked in mum's jeans and my padded shorts stank too and i had to wash it in korea.

3) had stomach flu in korea cause i slept without my pants on cause it was too hot and was hospitalised. i hate to eat and vomit and drink and diarrohea and eat and vomit and drink and diarrohea.

4) sister erased ALL MY FILES AND FOLDERS AND MUSIC AND PICTURES. AND I EMPTIED MY RECYCLE BIN WITHOUT KNOWING TILL IT WAS GONE.

5) tony tay(primary school friend) has a girlfriend called faye.

6) ahmad nabil has finally began to use msn.

7) yinrui came online at 11.30pm.

8) ima creating a livejournal acc with jm.

9) i bought pressies for everyone! (okay maybe not EVERYBODAY)

10) i like playing truth or truth with yinrui.

11) HELLOGOODBYE STILL ROCKS MY BALLS.

2004-12-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

All I needed was for you to hold on to me.
Hold on to me.
Is letting go really the easier way out?

Sorry but the wind came and blew me away,
away from you.

2004-12-19T01:20:00.000+08:00

i write too many love poems that are saddoistical. should change.

i've realised i have little use for my handphone.

i've not done my hw.

my english sucks to the core.

my height aint increasing. im approximately 5cm away from my targeted height at this stage.

motivation is lacking in my life.

i have o levels next year. raffles ppl dont.

i listen to too many japanese songs lately.

i should change my bad habit of bathing late, sleeping late, waking up late, and most importantly, being late all the time.

PROCRASTINATION IS THE THIEF OF TIME. trust me.

blogger sucks. i should try livejournal or diary-x or diaryland or something.

i love anime.

i am an immature reader.

i do not have gynophobia. though i think i used to.

i want to have more time. the holidays arent supposed to end so soon.

laziness is not a virtue. stop lying to yourself avery. IT IS NOT OKAY.

PS. this was a rant. a RANT. do you think i need professional help.

2004-12-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

Your Secret - a sad love that was never meant to be

your gentle eyes betrayed your sadness
my heart could felt like yours did
the feeling was transparent
like glass;
i love you more than anything else
yet i could do naught

i knew that something was troubling you
otherwise why couldn't you smile well
why weren't you.. you?

you had your secrets
and you broke down as you told me
i said i'll never breathe a word
and i never did

that night;
you jumped right into my arms
i said you can cry here
and don't try to hold back the tears

the moonlight reflecting off the pool
illuminating your face;
your tears
you said you hated crying
i wanted to say i hated to see you cry
but the words choked

my arms around you
my shirt felt wet from your tears
i cursed myself for being helpless
the pool looked warm
but it was cold to the touch

i feel that i love you
it becomes painful, but i fell in love

i run straight ahead
i want you to reflect me in your eyes
more than yesterday, more than today
i'll give you a smile and stay together with you

forever.

i held your secret
and locked it away safely in my heart
throwing away the key into oblivion
but then i locked you out;
and so did you;
for then i knew
i reminded you

of your secret.

2004-12-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

Alone: a morbid rant about being alone

i am alone
there is no one else
nobody can understand me
all alone in my cold room
lacking of human warmth

i am alone
i have no friends
people who have friends are weak
i am strong
i have no friends

i am alone
by myself
i have no emotions
emotions are for the weak
i am strong
i have no feelings

i am alone
love is non-existent
love is for weaklings
i am not weak
no one loves me
i feel no love

i am alone
in my room
the window promises much
escape is not impossible
yet i chose to stay
because
ultimately
i am

alone.

2004-12-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

Baby can't you see that I want you. Or so I say?

2004-12-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

i'm back from thailand. thailand was fun, did lots of stuff, but somehow i feel that last year's trip was more interesting. realised i lost my SIM card when joel asked me to check my phone for an sms from shirley. grr, i guess i wont be recieving any smses in a while.

i feel damn tired and sick but im just refusing to sleep. i have no idea why. slept at 4.30am(SGT)/3.30am(THAI)yesterday. btw, i HATE TO SIT ON AIRBUSES. they make me ill. maybe it's the motion sickness or maybe it's the air pressure. grr, they are SO lousy. S'PORE IS SOOO HOT. thailand is so much cooler and less humid. bah, i'm bored to death. no one to chat to. no one to play with. nothing to play with. cant watch my anime(parents hogging the tv). cant sleep(i just DUNWANNA).

im lonely and bored and tired and sick and moody and bloggish and psychotic and listening to saddo chinese ballads and looking at my long long list of holiday assignments which i havent started on yet and thinking about how it is less than 28 days till i become a secondary 4 student officially and pondering on who should i sell my condoms too and wadeva whatever wAd3v@.

i want my SIM card back.
i want my IC back.
i want my contacts back online.
i want my computer to be able to play dvds.
i want my inuyasha dvds to be on the rack tomorrow.

Or So They Say

time awaiting,
the instant dissipating,
chances are fleeting
or so they say.

time passes,
the emotions rushes,
longing is not everlasting
or so they say.

time heals
these wounds are real
pain is fleeting
or so they say

time fades
memories of past dates
love is not everlasting
or so they say

but
my chances can come again
my longing still remains
my pain still grieves
my love still 71435

time is neither fleeting nor everlasting
or so they say.

2004-12-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

i regret coming on this trip. screw taiwan.

2004-11-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

i do STUPID THINGS. yesh i do. i just realised my ic was lost TODAY. maybe i lost it TWO WEEKS earlier. this is so frustrating. but i cant blame no one. my life thus far has been made up of many politely put, inappropriate gestures at awkward moments. or then again, it can be said i do many stupids things that are due to partly luck and partly stupidity/clumsinity(if there's such a word, IF NOT I MADE IT UP).

for instance, i can fall while walking, i can fall while walking and yet again, i can fall while walking. i can lose my ic that's in my wallet and lose nothing else. i can be late all the time and get suspended from my post in the VSPB when i live 3 BUS STOPS AWAY. i can miss my train, then miss my bus at the interchange. ALL 3 OF THEM. okay maybe im not so unlucky.

QUESTION TO PONDER
WHY DO TEENAGE GUYS SEEM TO LIVE IN A WORLD RELVOVLING AROUND TEENAGE GIRLS ONLY

i miss daryl. i miss yinrui. i miss *whoever is abroad*. i miss that sedap chilli from the malay stall. i miss my IC.

tata, going to watch INUYASHA!

2004-11-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

i feel like i drift between friends. that isnt good. that means i dont have a fixed set of frens. sure i do have a fixed grp of guys i hang out with. but sometimes i feel so close yet so far. it's not gay, but i dont understand them sometimes, gosh i dont know myself.

thinking about it, i dont like going out with girls. it makes me feel uneasy. so grr.

2004-11-18T01:23:00.000+08:00

this is stupid. grr. not enuff space for the doodle board. irritating to keep scrolling. will get it fixed. i wonder whom i'm talking to sometimes. anyone who visits please tag. at least i know i'm NOT alone.

2004-11-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

yay. i am inuyasha. i'm still dissatisfied with the layout. i'm sure daryl will be too if he was in s'pore.

2004-11-17T20:56:00.000+08:00

What Inuyasha Hero Are You?
Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.

2004-11-17T01:16:00.000+08:00

hey. new blog template. grr. took me so long to fix it up. sorry bout the missing links and doddle board, will try to get them up asap.

2004-11-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

HELOH.

issa is a ROCKS and she ownzorz your backside. (:

ngwehehe, i'm so nice. Avery should gimmeh 50 bucks for this man. do you know what this blog is titled? here goes, "Brothers Inc. sweet. eye. candy." oohlala. I KNOW I'M EYECANDY. okay ^^"

haha, i'm bored la.

i blow you suck. shh! gbye! xP

2004-10-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
natasha bedingfield - these words.
take a listen. =)

okay, this post IS NOT about results. but just to start things off, as usual, things arent looking too bright for me, screwed pretty badly. hopefully i can buck up.

gao yuan yuan is history. i finally realised that she's outta my league.

trying to pick up the guitar. it's been tough on my delicate female fingers.

and sorry, i still have no mood for any poems.

damnit, o levels chinese next week.

and i got C5 for HCL.

WOW.

tata.

2004-10-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

i am in love. with a gal called gao yuan yuan. my goddess... ahhhhh. save me from temptation and deliver me from evil.

exams over next wed. cant wait to mug. i wanna meet someone like her at least once in my life man, she's such a beautiful thing. she's not some hot babe, she's just beautiful, you guys dig?

try listening to hellogoodbye-call and return, you can preview it and dl it for free at purevolume.com

i am desperate. help help help. my life is in a mess. wait, i have no life to mess, ahhhhh. but then again, who am i apealling to, who gives a damn, bah.

i need to reformat my com, study for o levels, get gao yuan yuan as my girl, marry her and have kids and live happily ever after. sounds hard huh, well it is, so why dont i just forget it and continue living in angst. whatcha say, a good idea?

2004-10-02T01:45:00.000+08:00

daphne loves derby - come winter. yay i like that song. today was boring. studied a bit. now it's so late and i want to sleep. pffft i'm being ignored. and i haven't taken my shower.

sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.
sucks.

yeah you suck.

I'll be there.

2004-09-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

2004-09-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care......hold on.

2004-09-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

I'M WISHING I COULD PLACE A CALL AND FEEL CLOSER TO YOU

2004-09-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

LUMDEEDUM. 3 weeks to end of years. ahhhhhhhhh. guess i aint that prepared. lol. http://www.fictionpress.com/~averychew go review. http://www.poemranker.com/user-browse.jsp? go rate. arigato.

A	Awesome
V	Virile
E	Easy
R	Rare
Y	Young

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

2004-09-10T17:29:00.000+08:00

Dear Crush,

I love you too. And I always will. Until the day I die. (:

2004-09-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

D	Dreamy
A	Awesome
R	Rich
Y	Yummy
L	Luxurious

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

2004-09-08T09:53:00.000+08:00

X)

ialsosvie

2004-09-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

dear blog, what is wrong with me?

Humpty dumpty love song

All of the king's horses

And all of the kings men

Couldn't put my heart back together again

All of the physicians and mathematicians too

Failed to stop my heart from breaking in two

Cos all I need is you

I just need you

Yeah, you got the glue

So I'm going to give my heart to you

I had a premonition

A movie in my mind

Confirming my suspicions about what I would find

You followed me to LA, down to Mexico

Came in through the back door

At the start of the show

Oh was a perfect day

Oh in a perfect way

You know, something had to go

You left me high, you left me low

Now as I lie in pieces, await for your return

The sun upon my forehead

It burns, baby, burns, baby, burns

An eye on all my horses

You slept with all my men

I'm never going to get it together again

travis. get the album. although it's old.

2004-09-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

just decided that i better blog about this before i forget.

recently i've been having alot of dreams. and i've not been able to control most of them which is weird for me since i'm usually able to do so. guess i've just been too tired lately and therefore i'm losing my ability.

a few days back i dreamt of her. i was embarassed and i hid in a corner. but when i came out she was still there. i continued to hide.

last night i dreamt of felicia. she looked all so healthy and vibrant. jingming, desmond, nigel, grace, susanta were there too. we were meeting her to go out of a meal. she looked so happy.

this afternnon i slept. and i dreamt of her again. she was lying one my shoulder. i looked at her and she kissed me. her lips were soft and warm. it felt all too real. then i dreamt that it was new year. we were out visiting. we were married. then we went back home, i dreamt of the lift coming and we went up together. at home, she leaned on me,and then she fell into a deep slumber and the scene melted into another i cannot recall.

sometimes i wish dreams were real. they feel so real. too 'touchy'.

ri you suo si, ye you suo meng, rh said this to me once. i doubt it. yet now i am forced to reconsider. we often forget our dreams, maybe because thinking of how sweet they were would bring us pain. dreams are our source of mental relief, we seek reassurance and peace in them. dreams are so wonderful, albeit the fact that they are unreal. maybe, just maybe, dreams do exist, in another dream dimension..

a read about this once. a fortune telling book. dreams are often premonitions. for some, they come true as they saw it in their dreams. for others, dreams are the opposite of what they are going to face later on. i wish so much for the former, dont you?

so every night i'll pray, i'll have you here one day, i'll count the stars tonight and hope with all my might, that when i close my eyes, you'll be right by my side, if i could have just one request, stay with me girl i confess, all my only dreams..

2004-09-01T18:47:00.000+08:00

it's so many nights now, i find myself dreaming about her now..

2004-09-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

we are all despos, do not deny that.

blogs have become a sort of identity. looking back, i guess i spent more effort learning html to make my blog than during the html course i had back in primary sch for my cyber club competition. crap. but are they being phased out already? beats me.cant be bothered to get a hit list, my from what i've seen in other ppl's blogs, the hits per day can be pretty low, like 4 or 5 hits. this sucks.

shirley's bday on the 3rd of september. zihua's bday is next next week, 13 september.

Greasy Woman
she reeks of oily food; yellow
kentucky and macdonalds;
her perfume; pink
she engulfs me;
in a mist of uneasiness; grey
i go weak;
the putrid smell; green
my alveoli sacs suffocate;
clay; waxed feeling.; brown

2004-08-31T01:45:00.000+08:00

It was once said that an angel fell from Up Above. His name was Lucifer.

Invading my sleepless nights, my dreams.
Seeping into every crevice of my soul,
You fill me up, yet I feel so empty.

Locked doors to the past,
You hold the key tightly in your hand.
I will never know.

Marble statues; of Love,
Hate and Despair.
(Like the Devil himself, you burn me up, from inside)

Fallen angel,
when shall you take me away?

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2004-08-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

love comes when it's supposed to
there's no point trying to find a love that is not there
and doing so only invites pain
for love is not compromised
but when love strikes grab it
for love is a mutual attraction
an arrow through two hearts in an instant
and if pulled out
both shall die
for love cannot be broken

curse cupid for the hearts torn apart
praise eros for the hearts welded together
kiss aphrodite love itself
love is but an 'i' away from life,
when you put yourself in love
it is then you begin to live
there is no love without hate
there is no hate without love
for when you love someone
you hate him in a peculiar way
in the way he makes you stutter
in the way she makes your heart melt

can a mute man love a blind women
can a beast seduce a beauty
the answers are undefined
for so is love
love is blind and mute
it closes your eyes and takes away your tongue
you see what your heart sees
you say what your heart says
for your heart is your life organ
and your love sense as well
love and life are entwined
they are inseparable
for one who has not loved
has not lived

2004-08-29T02:57:00.000+08:00

i stood alone in the pouring rain at the harbour
i could hear you say goodbye for the last time as the shop
i wapt as your ship sailed away
but my mouth could make no sound

do you remember when i washed your hair in the balcony
can you remember when you said i could be your boyfriend

i want to tell you
but the words dont flow
i want to hold you
but my arms just flail
i want to kiss you
but i can't say the words

all you needed was a sign
all i couldnt make was a sound

as you left
my heart shattered

the rain relentlessly attacking my wounds
like a million shards of glass entering my heart
i could only watch you leave

though i ran
and though i did
i could not utter a word
as i watched you leave

you left me
your number
i called
you answered
but then again
i could not speak
i could not say

i love you. and i really do.

as the knife plunged into me
i recalled your drawing
a vision so true
but now i know i can no longer hold you
as i am crying over you
and i am dying
my life slips away
though i still long to hear you say
you love me too
the wound so deep
plunged into me
i played our song on my harmonica
the last song
over the reciever
and then i die. and you'll never know.
you'll never know i died.

2004-08-29T01:44:00.000+08:00

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2004-08-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

..you really didnt need to dash my hopes so early.

i'm broken.

goodnight to all those nonchalant people out there.

2004-08-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

i'm holding on, waiting for your call, it's simple but i can't explain this.

2004-08-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

my birthday's coming in a few days time. but who really gives a fuck? im valued below a fucking bag.

met frau tan today. it was really nice to see her again. really unexpected.

okay badnight.

2004-08-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

go but songs about jance by maroon 5. it's good.

saw st theresians at macritchie today. were you there clarissa?

exmas in a month and a half. start the countdown.

life goes on.

2004-08-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

i feel damn screwed. i totally thrashed my sec 3 life man, it's so totally screwed upside down. no idea why i suddenly thought of felicia, she's disappeared into thin air, can't seem to see her around. lol.

so totally screwed studies. so totally screwed running. so totally screwed prefectsthingy. so totally screwed my life. so totally screwed. man. at least i saw who my close frens were this year. (not in order of importance), jm, des, niggle, joel, theo. basically just these few guys, all the rest of the ppl around me are uber screwed. but then again, who isnt?

li jia wei and ronald susilo make one hell of a match. i so totally can't wait to see them get married.

i was one hell of a copycat in the past, but somehow or rather i think i finally saw things through this year.

i regret too much. i'm gonna change that.

rollercoaster favourite ride... what a ride this year. bah.

2004-08-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

i swear that i can go on forever again
please let me know that my one bad day will end
i will go down as your lover, your friend
give me your lips and with one kiss we begin

2004-08-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

i <3 Mandy Moore. go listen to her songs!!

mmwe aoah nolo drkm yeme

2004-08-07T17:13:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE BUY ME THE NEW FOUND GLORY ALBUM.

2004-08-07T11:48:00.000+08:00

Well I fall asleep tonight
Don't wanna lose the fight
And I wanna get it right
This time it's not for you
Well I fall asleep tonight
Don't wanna lose the fight
And I wanna get it right
This time it's just for me